How things go. Changing, yet still the same.

I had originally thought that all my blogs would be meaningful, hold some interesting bit of insight. But I have come to realize, I don't write enough on here to be insightful, let alone have enough insights into living life as I sit at home most days trying to work my way through CPA exam study materials. I had a decent post put together that I wrote, and managed delete unintentionally back in June. I just haven't decided if I want to try and recreate it or not. I have to wonder what people who blog do it for, is it there own live journal, or is something else? I used to journal frequently when I was in middle school, or as my mom likes to call it 'middle school hell'. But I don't seem willing to pick up and pen and write down all my thoughts anymore. The good, bad and ugly- letting my day spill out onto the page. I saw some sign that I thought was very insightful if you took it beyond the obvious intent, and had intended to inspire me into writing, but I never wrote it down, and the post was never written. Waiting for something to inspire me, is different than writing about my day. What is it that draws people to writing? I can't even assume anyone reads my very infrequent blog posts, does that change how people write? If they KNOW someone is reading?

All I know for sure, is that simply having my degree doesn't mean I know anything about living. I experienced life when I went to Chile, Argentina, and Peru for my two month study abroad trip. But even then, I was closed off to a lot of potential experiences. I can remember graduating high school and most of us thinking we were all that and a bag of chips, I look at high school students now, and laugh at how naive we were. But sadly, I have to almost do the same now, how naive are we post grad, thinking that we are now ready for all life has in store for us? But 4 months outside of school, and I still don't have a job, and i'm still working on exams, and writing resumes and wondering, is all that I really know enough?